The Book of Heresy pt 15 - Revelation of self - step five

Step 5 Rise Above

This is perhaps the greatest step for increasing your self confidence and self-awareness, as well as your abilities to understand so much more about the world than you ever did before. However, this step also has a tendency to isolate you, and for many it places a weight of responsibility upon their shoulders.

In this step you will learn to rise above yourself. With the comfort you have attained in step three with your relation to self, and the practice and ability to manipulate yourself gained in step four, you can gain here the ability to simply understand the impulses and emotions that occur within you. Knowing the root of these things so effortlessly will enable you to rise above these emotions, not to suppress them or ignore them, but to feel them, commune with yourself, and not let them overwhelm you. You can keep a clear mind in situations that would panic others, and can make more fully informed decisions that suit you better to your long term desires which you can now begin to see.

Once you learn to rise above yourself, you will find the ability to see the path of events in your life with greater clarity and to perceive your desires for you life, and the likely events that will transpire long down the road. Inversely, you will also discover that with a knowledge of self at this level that you can also easily read, and predict the nature of other people and other events in the world. What seemed so complex once will seem so transparent now.

Often at this level you will feel great annoyance at the shortsightedness of others, even of whole organizations of people, yet your ability to rise above will transform that annoyance to sympathy that they simply cannot understand. The daily drama of human life will have less an effect on you, and when others conflict with you, you will discover that you can see the root of their anger, see where they are right, and where they are wrong, yet you will know that there is little you can do to make them understand.

As you rise above, you can easily be swallowed up by your sympathy, and your empathy for people that you now understand so easily. Yet you must be vigilant that you do not became a slave to their desires and their weaknesses. Your journey is not now, nor will it ever be finished, and if you allow the weak and short sighted to use you because of your sympathy for them, than you will stagnate, and your growth will halt. This is not however, a license to sink back down into those petty emotions and embrace the spite and annoyance that you felt for them. To be swallowed by contempt for those who do not and cannot understand what you know perceive is as bad or worse than being their slave. You must find a balance within yourself, not to much detachment, not to much sympathy, and most of all do not isolate yourself from them least you loose touch completely and loose the path of self revelation completely. You will find that while you feel that you are walking alone on this path, that you still need company and human interaction in life. Nothing can truly be done alone, not even this.

The Book of Heresy pt 14 - Revolation of Self pt 4 - Evolve and Develop

The process of step three, forgiveness of self is perhaps the longest most arduous of the steps of self revelation, at least so far as I have thus far traveled. However, when you reach the point were you can move on (note that I do not say completion of the steps, no step is every completed), you will do so with a new empowering relationship with your inner self. You will have learned to communicate with your inner self and the mysterious workings will not be so mysterious anymore.

Because of this new found relationship of understanding that you have with yourself, you will then be capable of evolving and developing aspects of yourself. In the previous steps you will have learned of the existence of the parts of yourself, you will have accepted them as part of you, and you will have come to understand and forgiven the grievances within yourself.

Only now can you begin to take those things, those gifts and those weaknesses and begin to modify them. You will be able to tap your strengths in a way never before available to you, and you will be able to do so without fear. One by one you can embolden your inner self and strengthen your new bond. As you embrace and learn your talents and your points of view, you will form a familiarity with your inner self. As you experience events in your life, your inner self will communicate more and more easily with you. You will understand the complex emotions that it unveils to you, you will know what you want, and why. And you will be able to communicate with your inner self to let it know it has been heard, to feed it love, and bow to its whims, or to explain to it why it cannot always have its way.

It is even possible for your inner self to learn more from you and about you, and it will help guide you far more effectively when you have a strong relationship. Your heart will know your life’s desires, and your inner self will strengthen your gifts and give the strength to follow your path.

As you begin to master the evolution of self, you will begin to understand that your love of self, and the partial piece of mind that comes with it, will enable you to be independent and strong, and to understand the world in ways you never thought you could. By the zenith of step four, you will have a trust in the strength of self, and will greatly excel in strengths and abilities that you were only marginally good at before.

It is hard to be specific in this step, as your strengths and weaknesses will be unique to you, and you will have to find and develop them for yourself. For some this is a spiritual time, as they strengthen their awareness and beliefs, and focus their spiritual practices. For others this is calculating and scientific, increasing technical proficiency with new found skills, using new strengths and confidences gained in this and previous steps. You cannot exactly be told what to do, only vaguely what it is like when you are doing it right. This step takes a while to get into the swing of, and it, more than any other step, always feels unfinished. Yet there will come a time when you feel ready to move on, even though your newfound abilities remain un-mastered.

The Book of Heresy Pt 13 --The Revelation of self step 3 – Forgiveness of Self

Step three, upon first description sounds so much like step two. Some who find it step right over it. Yet as simple a thing as it is, and as small a step as it seems, it is as important a step upon this path as any. And like all the rest, it must be continually applied. To move beyond this step without taking it will inevitably cause one to fall off the path of self revelation.

The third step, simply put, is forgiveness of self. For a long time I considered forgiveness and acceptance the same thing, but that was before I really understood what forgiveness was. The reason I did not understand the difference, is because almost no one ever actually forgives anyone, and fewer still forgive themselves. What people think of as forgiveness today is actually a form of acceptance. To put aside an incident and agree to pretend that it never happened or not to talk about it. To no long argue about a thing, but most often the feelings on both sides of the issue remain and only time will cause them to fade and only if the issue is avoided. They accept that this difference of opinion, this inability to agree or make amends, will not change and cannot be overcome. Yet there is no real exchange of understanding, no relief of emotional baggage, only an agreement to put the matter aside and consider it concluded. This is modern forgiveness, and it is false.

Real forgiveness is a rare thing, but it does exist, and it creates understanding and opens paths of progress between those rare people capable of it. A relationship is cemented with great power when forgiveness passes between them. Real forgiveness comes when two parties understand one another points of view, understand the motivations which lead to the disagreements or misunderstandings. 99 out of a 100 times misunderstandings is all that they are. Humans are very limited creatures with poor communication skills when they are at the best, and we most certainly are not at our bests. Nearly all disagreements, hurt feelings, even hatreds come from misunderstanding one another. Once true understanding passes through a rift between people, not only does the situation become resolvable, but once resolved hard feelings not only vanish but are replaced by a sense of friendship and understanding that was never present even during prior friendship.

So we have discussed the differences between acceptance and forgiveness as it applies to the relation between people, but how does one forgive themselves, and why is it important to do so? Most of what people carry to the outside world as far as opinions and judgments firsts develops in a relationship they are not even aware of, the relationship of self. The reason most people are not aware of the relationship they have with themselves is because they do not realize that they are very nearly two people.

All the elements of perception within the self can be divided up into two sections, conscious and subconscious, or any number of other labels with the same basic meaning, inside, outside; karma and dogma or some such things. Regardless of labels the division is basically thus; conscious self contains your surface mind, many of your memories and your five senses. The subconscious mind contains your core of emotions, or your heart, the operations and internal senses of the body and more recessed memories and more complex understandings of them. These two parts of your self function very nearly independently of one another, and while you may have come to think of your subconscious as being machine like, it is very much alive. However the subconscious lacks any sense of language, or any type of complexity, even simple deception is foreign to it, it thinks of only how to survive and tries to motivate the self to do so via emotions. The linking point between both parts is the ‘heart’, or the center of your being where you feel emotion.

The problem with the modern human being is that there is almost no communication with the inner self, as we have departed from nature and have been taught to consider the animal needs of the self to be ‘evil’ in nature, we have learned how to ignore the inner self. This creates strife in the modern being, misbalance and discord, and isolation of both halves of the self. The inner self’s attempts at communication go unheeded and unheard, and so emotions become complex and backed up as the inner self grows sick from unexpressed emotion. The outer self doesn’t fully understand this dynamic, but only knows that it no longer trusts the inner self, and its isolation the surface mind passes judgment upon the selfish unheeded desires of the inner self.

This slanderous judgment of self is then extrapolated into the world and is carried into relationships with all other beings. Making true understanding and true forgiveness all but impossible. To truly take the next step in the path of self revelation, it is required that one learn how to better communicate with the inner self. You’ll find that once the inner self expresses its emotions, even its irrational ones, the emotion is relented once the inner self knows that it has communicated with the outer self. The inner self has only you, it cannot commune with others, it is lonely, and knows only its needs and wants knowing no other way. You must understand that much of what is within you is purely natural though you may have been taught that it was not so. You must learn to accept the elements that compose who you are, no matter what they are.

This isn’t a license to let every carnal desire of the inner self unleash, for this behavior is often destructive to current societal standards of living. However, it is ok to know that these wants and needs exist and are a natural part of you. When you learn to commune with the inner self, you will learn the motivation behind your complex and misunderstood emotions, behind many of the inner minds secretive workings. Then, once true understanding passes between you and your inner self, you can understand, accept and forgive that inner self. A true forgiveness, will strengthen the bond of self and ignite an strength and confidence that will carry forth into your life and into your relationships with other beings.

You will notice then perhaps more than in any other step in this process, that your insight into the world around you, and your abilities to handle problems and to see what was hidden from you before, will be greatly improved. Like all the steps of course, the dialogue with the inner self, and the acceptance and forgiveness that comes along with it is an essential and continual component to all steps beyond this one on the path to self revelation.

All this is possible by simply separating your emotions, and one by one feeling them and asking your inner self why you feel these things. As you learn to hear your inner voice, you will also note the alleviation of these burdening emotions. Slowly you will build a language with your inner self and soon the division between you will not seem so great.

The Book of Heresy pt 12 - Journey of self revelation - step 2

Step 2. Acceptance of self

The second step on the road of self revelation is acceptance of those truths that you perceive using the first step. Those few who find themselves capable of the first step, often falter at the second step. To accept the truths of self, one will see and realize the good and bad things about themselves, but the bad things will most often fill their perception. Their first desires will be change, to eliminate those bad things in the quest for perfection. The revelation of self is never the perfection of self. The self can not be perfect, perfection is a flawed concept. The ultimate form of self is unique to all, and in being different they cannot be perfect.

Before you can make choices about who you are and who you want to be, before you can add good things, and remove bad things, you must first learn to live with those things which you already are. The strong desire to eliminate a negative thing about yourself that you have discovered comes from your inability to accept that these things are a part of you. You see them, and immediately judge them based upon the hopes and fears that you have always known, which means you have set aside the lens of truth. The moment you start down this road, you have abandoned the path of self revelation.

You must know yourself, and you must know all the parts regardless of how they now make you feel. Acceptance is a fundamental key to being able to tap your inner strengths. You may find in time that what you first perceived of as a flaw, or a weakness, was s symptom of another ability or trait that can be redirected, or better used. You may find that those things you fear to accept, are those things which can make you the strongest. Then again, you might not, but until you accept yourself for the way that you are, you will never know what you are capable of.

Even when you have mastered yourself, when you know your core and have found your purpose, you will find that there are always things about yourself that you do not fully understand. There will be things that make you proud and things that do not. Yet once the self is mastered, there will be a peace and inner strength, which is largely drawn from the comfort you have reached by accepting who you are.

The Book of Heresy pt 11 - Journey of self revelation - step one

I very nearly began a section regarding some of my rather unorthodox speculations regarding the origins of the universe, but instead have been requested by a friend to review the steps of self revelation. It is my personal belief that there are few higher callings that the discovery of true self, and the revelations that follow with it. My own mentor, using methods previously unheard of, showed me the way down the paths of self revelation at a pace never before imagined. My evolution continues still, but now I have reached a point where I no longer require a guide. And have come further down this path than any, apart from my mentor, that I have ever met.

Even at this accelerated rate, it has taken me ten years to come this far, to truly have open eyes that can see inward and outward. It do not always understand what I see, but I now have the tools to puzzle these things out, and it is the source of my ability to divine hidden truths and secrets.

Every path of self revelation is unique, but most of those successful have commonalities. Here is the guide as I understand it now.

Step I
Step one is the hardest to take, the hardest to maintain, and the most powerful if mastered, of any of the skills self discovery can reveal. Step one is objective, self analysis. To those that do not understand this, it will seem easy, and those that do often say it can not be done. What is required is a dissection of self.
You must tare apart and classify all of what you are, what you contain without prejudice to that which you fear or hope. This step almost always finds failure from two mistakes. The first is to let hope bend truth, to give greater weight to things you desire to be true than they really possess. The second is to let fear twist self deceptions and draw people into being harsher and more self deprecating in their quest for self. In either case, you do not get an honest picture, but one that is influenced by hope, or by fear.

To truly take step one, you must learn how to be completely honest with yourself about all things. You must learn to see both the light and the darkness within yourself. You must tare apart all those things that you remember, all those things you were taught, those things you believe, your hopes, dreams, fears, and every part of you that comes to make you who you are. And you must look at each of them honestly, and you must decide what it is that you really believe, not hope, not fear, but believe. You must exalt those things as personal truths and let them guide you. Many more things will be questions, for there are more of them than answers in this world. Those questions you may have great hope or fear in their answers, but you must not let them become truths before your heart and mind agree than they are.

However, like every sing step upon the rode of self revelation, the methods learned must always be applied. The lens of truth must be used at all times, when you do good, or bad, dark or light, you must accept the truth of your motivations. You do not necessarily have to share them with others, honesty is not the beacon of salvation in this world that people claim, true honesty among one another would destroy us faster than hatred. We are not yet ready for those things… yet if you can be honest with yourself, even when you must display otherwise… you can take upon you a strength that will make your journey possible.

The truths you exalt to today, and that which guides you on your journey now, may not be truths you will follow forever. All things must be questioned, for a thing is only real if it is real to you.


Law One: Nothing is Sacred, everything is suspect, and the question is the answer.

The Book of Heresy - Pt 10 "They" pt 6 - Governments

Most conspiracy theorist, and even ordinary people, believe that our government, and other governments are the dominant power in the world. And if there are any conspiracies or secret powers, the government is the first place they look. So it probably surprises anyone reading my book of heresy, to find that I have listed government as the least powerful American super power, and even in other countries where their governments are more dominant, they are still subservient to corporations.

Our government in particular was designed in its infancy to be basically slow and powerless to do anything accept to defend the country from foreign invasion. Every other power it was given or has been given sense, was built with so much red tape, loop holes and checks and balances as to pretty much render the government impotent. These designs were so obvious that they required a cover-story. Having come freshly off an overbearing British government, they told the people that the checks and balance system was to prevent the government from becoming imperialistic and oppressive to its people.

Well, if that was its purpose, it failed miserably. The united states is undoubtedly and empire, and while Americans might not see it as oppressive, most other countries do. It shouldn’t surprise you that our government was designed by rich land owners who were members of a secret society with higher aims than just being powerful, but with that secret design in mind. It was for this that they made the government so dependant on the power of its populace, which sounds like a good idea on the surface. But when you recall what was said about what money really stands for, then you realize that the power of the people is in direct control of the people with all the money, so the power that runs the government is those same rich families that built the government in the first place.

The American government is the weakest of the five powers that rule our nation, because its hands were tied from the beginning, it was the first to serve the corporations, built by the rich to secretly empower them. The ideals of our government were actually born long ago, in the roman empire.

In those times, things were more plain than what they are now. Dictators did not soften their identities, emperors ruled with impunity, and people loved violence without shame, watching gladiators die for their entertainment. It was their that the Romans who had expanded an empire greater than any before it, had to tax the roman citizens heavily, to wage wars that were unpopular and considered unnecessary by the citizens. They learned however, that they could prevent revolt, so long as they fed the people and kept them entertained. It was called, bread and circuses. While placating the people and preventing any revolution, they discovered they could do even more then wage unpopular war. The people become completely uninterested in politics and did not even watch as they senate was corrupted and became the worlds first illusionary government. The people were given the illusion that there opinions had sway, and kept fat and happy so they didn’t look beyond the surface.

So it is today, in the American government, created as an experiment by rich land owners to see if they could make from the ground up, a powerful empire that they could rule with an iron fist, whose populace would believe was a benign, righteous republic innocent of all wrong doing. With such an empire their secret plans for human destiny were much closer to falling within their grasp.

Only with the rise of the internet destabilizing the corporate control over the media and the system of education, has the illusion started to crumble. Without the full strength of those two powers to help sustain control over the government already bought and paid for, the illusionary system so carefully designed to be weak, has gained some power. However it is not properly channeled, and not used to working without restraint, and our current foreign policy is a direct result of semi rich fools out of control looking out only for their own interests. It is unfortunate, but perhaps an inevitable necessity should “they” ever be revealed to the people, their control which had provided stability would waver and some chaos will occur.

In all likelihood they will recover from this little destabilization, find a way to bring the internet back into control and resize the power of the media and the education system, solidify their hold once more over the government, and return to business as usual. As much as I’d like to see the truth revealed, I don’t believe the people are willing to see the truth, even if it could be proven and handed to them. The people really want to be lied to, because they know they need to be controlled to be given safety. They don’t honestly care to much about what those who give them safety do with the power handed to them, so long as they believe they are safe and happy.

The fear of the throws of chaos will for a very long time, probably prevent any positive changes in our way of life. So while things will no doubt become infinitely more complex as the years roll on, the old and wise will easily be able to see that nothing really changes at all.

The Book of Heresy pt 9 - "They" pt 5 - Power of Knowledge

Technological advancement has always been on the cutting edge of rising nations, and has often proved to be the deciding factor in the success and longevity of many societies. The more advanced a societies understanding of science and nature, the more likely that it would survive and grow at great rates. But perhaps even more importantly, the more education and understanding the general population had, the more truly great artists and scientific minds would developed within that country to lead to later breakthroughs.

The primary means of the existence of science and education has been for the betterment of day to day life, and to increase the efficiency of the labor of the populace so they can get more done in less time and be happier doing it. However, it is quickly discovered in any society of conflict that superior education, and superior technology also leads to victory in combat situations and in conflict between differing societies. Only with superior training and technology could an invading army defeat desperate men on their own ground, and thus expand their empires.

So at the turning point of male dominated culture about ten thousand years prior, knowledge and education became a cornerstone to a powerful society and very important to the corporate entities that would later draw most of their powerful revenue from the advancements of science.

However, there is always a balance to be struck, and the corporate entities which rule seek control over their populace. On over educated populace will be far more difficult to educate, and in addition the knowledge of science tends to weaken religious faith which further complicates keeping the populace in line. Because of this, a general education is easy to get, and very much encouraged by the corporate giants, however, a detailed education with higher levels of understanding is harder to come by.

You have to either be born of the already rich, or you have to display such a talent for learning and a willingness to sacrifice, that you prove yourself a candidate for raising your social status. Of course, if you do so you will find yourself largely indebt to the corporation, and the process of paying them off will also put you in a position where you are useful to them for a great deal of time.

Education remains a tricky, but powerful system. I often think to myself what a unique society would be like if it were the dominant of the five powers. That is highly unlikely while the corporate giants rule, however the resent explosion of accessible knowledge and information on the internet has effected the standings of the knowledge branch of the five powers almost as much as it has effected the media. If the corporations and media do not soon gain complete control over the internet, they may find its developments in information sharing as damaging to their control over the system of education as it does the internet. And once knowledge and education to the highest levels becomes free to all… well then just about anything could happen. I can’t imagine the corporations remaining in command to long after that occurs, but I wouldn’t doubt they have contingencies prepared for that event.

The Book of Heresy - pt 8 - "They" pt 4 - Power of Religion

Of all five powers, Religion is the oldest and may even have been the binding element which held the first societies of people larger than hunting parties, together. One of the major keys to modern civilization is large numbers of human beings working together. There were times in ancient history where their were a great number of humans alive, but they had never congregated in once place in such numbers as they do today. It just didn’t seem natural or comfortable for so many organisms to be in one place, but we learned that if we do, there is much we can accomplish. Religion became one of the primary factors which could bring people together, moderate their disputes, provide moral guidance and that upheld behavior that stabilized society.

Like all the five powers, Religion didn’t start out with the purpose of controlling people, or to grant power to a chosen few, but like all the powers, it evolved into just that. Throughout the last ten thousand years of human history, Religion has often been the strongest of the five powers. Governments, corporations, education and knowledge and whatever media existed, all bowed before religious authority. The power that Religious authorities have to command is directly handed to them by the people, and so the power of religion in any system is completely determined by the fever with which the people in it practice and believe.

In today’s America, Religion is still powerful, but has taken a back seat to Corporations, Media, and the education system. People believe, but the practice of religion has become a once a week habit. Mostly they are pressured into belief by being born into it, and by a society that does not really wish to spend much time thinking about religion, but just wants to be told what they need to do to satisfy it.

When asked, most people will say they believe in god, or in Jesus, but only about half of them will actually say they go to church, and those that do only a fraction of them actually have any concrete feelings about their religion, or interpretations of their own on what they have been told. They go because the people they know go, and they believe because they are terrified of the unknown.

Fear is and has been for the last ten thousand years, the primary motivation behind religion. Fear of death is one of the first truths of an intelligent organism smart enough to realize its own limitations. So far as we know, human beings are the only organisms that are aware of the fact that their lives are temporary. Many believe that this fear alone is what separates us from them. Religion was created to elevate that fear, it turned out that the fear of death was so great, that people would do anything to defend their faith in a religion that promised eternal life.

No force in all human history has killed more people, caused more wars or aligned more peoples and societies than that of religion. More people have died in the name of god, than in the desire for freedom. That is truly astounding, and that speaks of just how afraid we all really are to die, and how much we want to hear anyone promise us that there is something more.

Organized religions of the modern age now wield a great amount of power and persuasion, however, because of their size and needs, they must deal with corporations and attain their permission to practice. Having to bend before corporations and at the same time falling under conflict with modern sciences version of the universe’s function has caused religion to loose some of its steam. Science and the system of knowledge has provided so much power and comfort to humanity in the last hundred years that it wields great power and popularity, stealing much if it away from Religion.

The scientific industries have provided so much power to the corporations, that they tend to heavily favor the scientific community over the religious community. Some might even speculate that the corporate organizations would like to see the scientific community render religion completely obsolete, though that is unlikely unless science begins to embrace some form of philosophy. People are just to afraid of the unknown, and they need a voice that can tell them what they want to hear, and reassure them that there is a purpose to it all. Science, can as of yet not answer to needs.